Heavy Hearted... Yearning to hold my baby...
The wait is so hard. I continue to pray for patience and peace in my mind and heart and in my family's minds and hearts. We all struggle, at times... Not just me, who is blogging.
Never in my life have I put more trust in God, felt so close to God, and relied more heavily on God. I am weak, he makes me strong. I am fearful, he brings me peace. I question, he gives me answers. I ache with pain, he says to "embrace the pain, hold on to the pain, feel the pain, always remember the pain - cry and feel the pain of my people everywhere." In my loneliness, he continues to be here. So, I continue to ache, cry, pray...that's ALL that I can do. But, yet, that is so AMAZING.
I am encouraged and amazed at the stories of some of my blogging families... These 2 families are in Rwanda bringing their babies home :)
http://theschulzfam.blogspot.com/
http://lotstolearnbutmoretolove.blogspot.com/
I pray that we will be in Rwanda at Godspeed :) I pray that we will have comfort in his plan:
Psalm 33:11 (NIV)
11 But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.
(NLT)
11 But the Lord’s plans stand firm forever;
his intentions can never be shaken.
Is 14:24 (NIV)
24 The LORD Almighty has sworn,
“Surely, as I have planned, so it will be,
and as I have purposed, so it will stand.
(NLT)
24 The Lord of Heaven’s Armies has sworn this oath:
“It will all happen as I have planned.
It will be as I have decided.
Is 46:10 (NIV)
10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say: My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.
(NLT)
10 Only I can tell you the future
before it even happens.
Everything I plan will come to pass,
for I do whatever I wish.
